I'm Back

Well, here it is. The late night post. I know I haven't blogged for a while. Why? I kind of lost myself. In the past few months, I had faced rejection, reality, and the inconceivable future. While everyone was getting excited due to the beginning of summer, I was just watching days go by with a familiar feeling of numbness. I didn't feel myself because everything was leaving and beginning so quickly, all at once. I stopped writing because I couldn't process my thoughts. I had lost my purpose, my muse. But then things changed. I found a different self. I found a new style, reorganized my bedroom, colored my hair blonde, and got my very first job. I began talking to new people and gaining new memories. I've formed new opinions, thoughts, and ideas. I've changed. I didn't want to blog again until I had found myself. But I was never really lost in the first place. I was just in the process of becoming an improved version of myself. So here I am. With a new style and attitude, I'm ready to face the world again. It's good to be back. 

Thoughts During The ACT

Well, the national ACT took place yesterday! This means college is approaching! It also means the anxiety levels of teens all climaxed at the same time. I took an ACT prep class so I was feeling pretty confident. However, most of my thoughts while taking the ACT went like this:

"Stay awake stay awake"

"Someone just flipped their page, I am behind??"

"What is this? Oh, just another thing I didn't learn in school"

"Will I honestly ever need this in my life?"

"HURRY UP AND FINISH"

"Ughhhh I just wanna go home" :( 

Basically all of that was running through my head while I was trying to understand what the questions actually meant. I was so relieved when it was finally over. All I want is to see my scores. Your score determines a lot, mainly what college will accept you. However, I realized one thing. Your score does not define YOU. So what if you got a lower score than someone else? Some of the smartest people are the dumbest people in certain situations. And if you got a low score, that doesn't mean you're dumb. It means you have certain strengthens that the ACT doesn't test you on. A standardized test doesn't define you as a person. Only you can define you. All the Love -Kate

My Take On Wisdom Teeth

What's up you guys! So yesterday was an eventful day full of pain and ice cream. That is correct, I got my wisdom teeth taken out. A rite of passage one might call it. I left my house for surgery at 9:30, and I have never had surgery before so I just hated the world. When we arrived to the oral surgery office, we checked in and didn't have to wait very long before they called me back. When I was sitting back there, waiting for the doc to come in my nerves started taking over. Whenever I'm nervous, I start laughing. So it was like the ultimate struggle not to burst out laughing. The whole process was very quick. They gave me an IV in my left arm which knocked me out immediately. The next thing I remember is laying down in the medical bed with my mom rubbing my back. I was awfully chatty after, and wasn't sure of what I was saying. However, my mom videotaped it and I said a lot. I asked if I had gotten lip injections like Kylie Jenner, I said "this is what Lil Wayne must feel like all the time," I thought my tongue was a slug, I explained how you can kill slugs, I said I hated my friends for putting me in a group chat, and I just laughed a lot. Once I got home and lied down for a while, the pain started to kick in. The pain is AWFUL. I'm still in horrible pain as I write this. My face is also a little puffy, too. The painkillers are great though! However, the fact that I can only eat pudding, ice cream, or mashed potatoes SUCKS. I thought I would enjoy that aspect, but all I want is pasta or chicken nuggets. Plus, it still hurts to eat ice cream. Moving my jaw in anyway hurts. It is day two, and my pain is supposed to reach it's peak on day three. Yikes. Well I hope everyone is feeling better than I do at this point. Have a great week! All the Love -Kate 

Forget About Them

Happy Easter, everyone!

Let's talk about how completely crazy people can get. I wish the world was simple. My question is: why do people act one way, then complete blindside you by becoming polar opposite? We all know these people. You think you're friends with them, and then poof, they act like they don't even know you. The solution? Cut the chord. If someone doesn't want to see how awesome you are and doesn't want to be a friend 24/7, than why bother with them. You're worth more than one individual's mixed signal mayhem. Once you drop these types of people, you are free. Your mental state, once full of questions, is now free. Live the life you were given and forget about society's drama. Why stress over one human when you have a world to see? Go explore, your heart can take a beat. All the Love -Kate

Things Happen

Hi, everyone! This week has been kind of a downfall for me. Cousin Emily is back in Texas and I've never missed her more. I haven't had the best luck with tests and school this week. And a new friend I had made quickly removed themselves from my life today. And so it goes. I think about how quickly everything can change. Like in school, I can have an A+ and one test changes it to a B. Or I have a shot at something and before I can grasp it, the window of opportunity slams shut. That's been my week/weekend. Among all the downfall, I began to think of how things will change for the better. This week is a three and half day week because spring break is coming up! I'm so thrilled to relax and refresh during spring break with friends. I also get to change up my hair a little this week, embarking on a "New Kate". My ACT is coming up soon. I feel more prepared than the last time I took my ACT, and when I think of the ACT, I think about college. College is my opportunity to grow and live a little. Also, prom is coming up in May! I can't wait to dance the night away with my girlfriends. Even though this week took a turn for the worst, I know that everything is just now starting to look up. All the Love -Kate

Weekend, Please Don't Leave

This weekend was spectacular. My cousin, Emily, stayed with me for the whole weekend and it was like she became the sister I never had. We went out on the town on Friday. On Saturday, we went on a shopping spree and even got sick friendship bracelet because we are just cool like that. I also got to introduce her to my friends this weekend which was a lot of fun. My friend, Clare, recently got surgery and I wanted to wish her well. Also, for anyone out there who rather enjoys reading (I mean you should, what do you think you're doing right now) you should read Clare's story she's writing on wattpad! I'll have the information in the left side bar. On Saturday night, we hopped into our sweatpants, ate loads of candy to the point where our stomachs couldn't take it anymore, and watched three movies and four episodes of Broad City. I had an incredible weekend with an incredible girl. Emily is someone I can tell anything to. Whether it be about boys, what's socially acceptable, views on life, or the future in general, we can chit-chat for hours about anything.  Today, she is traveling back home to Texas. To say that I'll miss her would be an understatement. But I know that this is the furthest thing from goodbye. I'm excited to embrace new adventures & unforgettable memories with her whenever we see one another again. Until then, I'll smile at the memories we've already created as the dynamic duo of cousins. (Love you Em). All the Love -Kate

Reunited At Last

So this is a late post, but I had one of the best weekends ever. My cousins, Hannah and Emily, came home from Texas. I had been waiting so long to see them, it was so fulfilling to see them again. Emily spent the night at my cousin's house. Her, Alex, Ella, and my brother Jack, all hung out and reunited. Seeing my best friends all together again was one of the most satisfying things that could have happened. Not all did I see them all again, but the weather is finally looking up. It's finally feeling like spring. Sharing multiple laughs on a sunny, cool day is one of the best feelings. We created numerous new jokes and laughs this weekend. Those laughs can never fade from my memory. I left my cousin's house today. I thought I wouldn't see Emily again and I was really heartbroken. However, I might see her later this week which gives me hope. Hope is what got me to see Hannah and Emily this weekend. Hope keeps me going and hope led me to a paradise of laughter this weekend. All the Love -Kate 

Girls Run the World

Helloooo! Today is a day to celebrate! What are we celebrating? Women! This week for school, I did a project on a woman named Jeanette Rankin. She was the first Congress woman and helped pass the 19th amendment (suffrage- the right for a woman to vote). Being a feminist myself, I was really inspired by the change this woman had made. I believe in equal rights and pay for all women. When I look at the world, I'm so proud at how far women have come. We used to not be able to express an opinion or become leaders. However, we pushed and fought our way to power. There are rumors that our next president may be a woman. I would be insanely thrilled if that were to happen. A woman president would be a powerful role model and leader to all women. I'm so proud of how far women have come. You go girls! All the Love -Kate 

Let's Stop Time

Hi guys! This week has been so hectic! Yesterday I had to give a presentation. I hate presentations with all my heart and soul. My heart was beating so fast and my body was shaking with nerves. I was so relieved once it was over. Yesterday also marked the end of third quarter at school. Yes, I am officially a junior in fourth quarter. Today, I went prom dress shopping with my mom and found one that I really loved. It was hard for me to find a dress because I felt so uncomfortable with myself. I'm just glad I found one I really love and I don't have to feel so insecure over the type of body I have for now. It feels so crazy. In one quarter, I'll be a senior. Then I'll go off to college and enter the adult world of paying bills after. Sometimes I wish I could slow down time or travel back. I don't know what I'll do without my school family. I'm going to miss every single person in my class so much. I know I shouldn't be stressing over this and I should just "live in the moment". It's hard to live in the present when the future impacts it so heavily. All the Love -Kate

My Blood-Related Best Buds

Good morning to all y'all! Today, the best sort of thing happened. My school I attend hasn't cancelled school due to weather all year and today they finally did! Yes, today I am writing to you in my pajamas, with some insane bedhead because school is CANCELLED!! I couldn't be happier! We didn't have school yesterday either (not weather related), so this really is the cherry on top of my now four day weekend. This weekend, my cousins came down and stayed with my family and I because they had swim competitions in my town. My grandma and grandpa (whom I refer to as G-mom and Papa or Girlll (long story)) also came down for a visit! My cousins Alex and Ella are truly my best friends. Ella is ten and Alex is twelve. Ella is honestly my little mini-me, except way more athletic. I'm always trying to set a good example for her just in case I happen to be her role model. Ella had heard of my blogging activity and she has decided to created a blog of her own! I will put the name of her blog in the side bar next to my cousin, Hailey, and her blog! Alex is someone who I have way too many inside jokes with. Alex and I are constantly laughing at ridiculous people on Vine or creating theories about characters on the television shows we watch. Alex lacks a filter at times but that is what makes him so entertaining. You are never bored around either of those two. Speaking of cousins, my other two best friends have moved all the way to Texas. My cousins, Hannah and Emily, moved to Texas this past summer. It was so heartbreaking to say goodbye to them. Emily and I are the same age, so we are attached to the hip whenever we are together. We also have our share of inside jokes (Em if you are reading this: My leg. Is stuck. In the recliner.) and we have loads of memories together! I remember sophomore year, I went to homecoming with Emily at her school just so we could be together for the night and party together! It was one of my favorite all time memories because I was with her and Hannah. Even though Emily and I practically FaceTime every week, it still breaks my heart that I haven't seen her in person for several months. I'm hopeful that I will see her and Hannah again. Hannah is visiting my state in March, and I could not be more thrilled! Hope is what keeps me going. If you are missing anyone because maybe they have moved far away or (this is where everything gets morbid) they are gone...forever, remain hopeful. Riding on hope is completely dangerous but hope is also the reason I will see one of my best friends in March. With hope, I guarantee I will reunite with Emily and it will be worth the wait. All the Love -Kate
P.S. feast your eyes on pics of my cousins and I! (in order: first pic- Ella and I, second pic- Alex and I, third pic- Emily and I, fourth pic- Hannah and I)

Think About The Positive

Hi everyone! I hope you had a great week! My week was filled with numerous projects and confusion about #thedress, also negative thoughts. I had been so stressed about school and the future that I had a break down. Thankfully, my mom was there to comfort me. She was surprised that I was upset, she's always described me as her "glass that is overflowing," meaning I'm always happy. She was really surprised that I had been feeling down lately about a lot of things. I told her how I feel so inferior to other kids at my school. There are some true geniuses at my school. I was also upset about my ACT score and how I feel like I've wasted so much time in my life that I could have used to my advantage. I've been so concerned about the future and that I won't have the life I've dreamed about. I finally confided to my mom about my recent emotions. She really reassured me that everything will turn out alright. She said I shouldn't be worried about the future. I should gaze at it with excitement because of all the possibilities life is granting me. My mom told me that it does not matter what my occupation in life is. The only thing I should aim to be is happy. Happiness is the key to a wonderful life. She also told me that there are some smart kids at school, but that doesn't mean I shouldn't be proud of my own school achievements. I could tell from the conversation she had with me, that she truly believes in me. She's given me so much confidence in myself and I'm extremely blessed to have a mother like her. My reason for posting this? I know I'm not the only kid who worries about the future. If you are stressing out like I was, just remember that life is going to through obstacles in your path. However, you shouldn't let these obstacles stop you from gaining the happiness you want out of life. Do what makes you happy, and everything else will fall into place. I believe in you. Remember to focus on the positive in life and detox yourself from the negative. It's the best way to live. Watch out for more posts coming this weekend! All the Love -Kate

BeYOUtiful

Happy Sunday! This post is directed more for the ladies. Last night, I went with a friend to see the newest, and most trending movie, "The Duff". Besides the movie being insanely hilarious, it had some meaningful lessons. For those who don't know, "DUFF" stands for Designated Ugly Fat Friend. In the movie, people befriend DUFF's to appear like the better looking when the two are compared. At the end of the movie, the main character and DUFF, Bianca, accepts herself for who she is. She says there will always be someone in life who is better than you, but that shouldn't effect how you see yourself. Embrace who you truly are and how you look. This message led me to think about confidence and natural beauty. Everyone has insecurities, I am insecure about almost everything. I'm especially insecure at school because all the girls at my school are absolutely gorgeous! However, believe it or not, "The DUFF" sort of changed me. I think girls need to learn to be confident in their own skin without using so much makeup to completely alter themselves. I want to accept my true self so I'm going to try to use less makeup. Less eye makeup, less face makeup. Now I'm not saying girls should stop wearing makeup. I personally adore makeup, and girls can use makeup to really enhance their features. However, whenever I take off my makeup, I tend to feel even more insecure about my appearance. I want to learn to accept that side of me. I want to embrace the real me. For any girl reading this who is possibly wanting to do the same thing, you can do that too! Whether it's wearing less foundation, a little less eye makeup, or even learning to work with and love your natural hair. My point is, every girl is beautiful whether they realize it or not. We need to learn to have confidence in our own skin, and embrace our so called "flaws". Thank you for reading. Self-acceptance and confidence are what I believe every girl should carry with them, no matter how hard it is to achieve. Stay beautiful. All the Love -Kate

The Great Escape

Hi guys! When I woke up this morning and looked out the window, I saw a sparkly, heap of snow that had taken over my entire neighborhood. My neighbors had to use a snow plow just to save my car! All this blizzard chaos just reminded me that winter is still present. It desperately makes me wish I was on vacation. I started to look back and reminisce about my favorite vacations. My safe haven for vacationing is in Hilton Head, SC. I've been about nine times (obsessed much?) and I dream  of returning soon! My all-time favorite vacation was when I went to Colorado with my family and cousins in 2013, even though wifi wasn't available . We stayed in a HUGE house that was way up in the mountains. It was so secluded and peaceful.  I loved taking adventures through the valleys and the woods. We went to Pikes Peak, too. Since it was snowing in the mountains, we got to have a snow ball fight in the middle of summer! That was truly the great escape. Hopefully summer 2015 will have a great adventure in store for everyone. All the Love -Kate

Blogging Away

Hi lovelies :) 
My name is Kate. I had a spur of the moment idea last night (also coined as the "light-bulb moment") to start this blog. The reason this idea came into my head was due to the fact that I was pondering about the future. I'm one of those kids who has always been set on a certain career choice. Now that college is approaching and the future is slowly reaching out to me, I am starting to second guess myself. Ever since the time I was young, I've always wanted to be a writer. I adore the creative aspect of writing. Some kids hate writing essays but I usually don't mind. I would specifically love to be in the magazine industry. Unfortunately, I am scared that I won't be successful in that career choice. Which honestly sucks. A lot. I started to talk to my mom about this because it was low-key freaking me out. She told me the only thing I should aim for in life is happiness. If anyone is reading this and is thinking that they honestly don't have any idea what they want to be when they "grow up," don't be afraid. I heard that 50-80% of kids go to college undecided. Don't stress about finding your perfect career choice. If you have a dream or a life plan, follow it. If not, everything will make sense once the future is ready for you to know what it has in store for you. I started thinking. To achieve my writing dream, I need to find my own voice. Thus, this blog was created. This blog is for me to share my ideas and build my writing experience. The main message of this post is that if you are preparing for college (like me), that doesn't mean you have to prepare for the rest of your life, too. If you aren't sure what you want to be, that's okay. The only thing that matters in life is if you are happy. :)
Thank you all for reading my first post! I'll post only on weekends.
All the Love -Kate