I'm Back

Well, here it is. The late night post. I know I haven't blogged for a while. Why? I kind of lost myself. In the past few months, I had faced rejection, reality, and the inconceivable future. While everyone was getting excited due to the beginning of summer, I was just watching days go by with a familiar feeling of numbness. I didn't feel myself because everything was leaving and beginning so quickly, all at once. I stopped writing because I couldn't process my thoughts. I had lost my purpose, my muse. But then things changed. I found a different self. I found a new style, reorganized my bedroom, colored my hair blonde, and got my very first job. I began talking to new people and gaining new memories. I've formed new opinions, thoughts, and ideas. I've changed. I didn't want to blog again until I had found myself. But I was never really lost in the first place. I was just in the process of becoming an improved version of myself. So here I am. With a new style and attitude, I'm ready to face the world again. It's good to be back. 

Thoughts During The ACT

Well, the national ACT took place yesterday! This means college is approaching! It also means the anxiety levels of teens all climaxed at the same time. I took an ACT prep class so I was feeling pretty confident. However, most of my thoughts while taking the ACT went like this:

"Stay awake stay awake"

"Someone just flipped their page, I am behind??"

"What is this? Oh, just another thing I didn't learn in school"

"Will I honestly ever need this in my life?"

"HURRY UP AND FINISH"

"Ughhhh I just wanna go home" :( 

Basically all of that was running through my head while I was trying to understand what the questions actually meant. I was so relieved when it was finally over. All I want is to see my scores. Your score determines a lot, mainly what college will accept you. However, I realized one thing. Your score does not define YOU. So what if you got a lower score than someone else? Some of the smartest people are the dumbest people in certain situations. And if you got a low score, that doesn't mean you're dumb. It means you have certain strengthens that the ACT doesn't test you on. A standardized test doesn't define you as a person. Only you can define you. All the Love -Kate

My Take On Wisdom Teeth

What's up you guys! So yesterday was an eventful day full of pain and ice cream. That is correct, I got my wisdom teeth taken out. A rite of passage one might call it. I left my house for surgery at 9:30, and I have never had surgery before so I just hated the world. When we arrived to the oral surgery office, we checked in and didn't have to wait very long before they called me back. When I was sitting back there, waiting for the doc to come in my nerves started taking over. Whenever I'm nervous, I start laughing. So it was like the ultimate struggle not to burst out laughing. The whole process was very quick. They gave me an IV in my left arm which knocked me out immediately. The next thing I remember is laying down in the medical bed with my mom rubbing my back. I was awfully chatty after, and wasn't sure of what I was saying. However, my mom videotaped it and I said a lot. I asked if I had gotten lip injections like Kylie Jenner, I said "this is what Lil Wayne must feel like all the time," I thought my tongue was a slug, I explained how you can kill slugs, I said I hated my friends for putting me in a group chat, and I just laughed a lot. Once I got home and lied down for a while, the pain started to kick in. The pain is AWFUL. I'm still in horrible pain as I write this. My face is also a little puffy, too. The painkillers are great though! However, the fact that I can only eat pudding, ice cream, or mashed potatoes SUCKS. I thought I would enjoy that aspect, but all I want is pasta or chicken nuggets. Plus, it still hurts to eat ice cream. Moving my jaw in anyway hurts. It is day two, and my pain is supposed to reach it's peak on day three. Yikes. Well I hope everyone is feeling better than I do at this point. Have a great week! All the Love -Kate 

Forget About Them

Happy Easter, everyone!

Let's talk about how completely crazy people can get. I wish the world was simple. My question is: why do people act one way, then complete blindside you by becoming polar opposite? We all know these people. You think you're friends with them, and then poof, they act like they don't even know you. The solution? Cut the chord. If someone doesn't want to see how awesome you are and doesn't want to be a friend 24/7, than why bother with them. You're worth more than one individual's mixed signal mayhem. Once you drop these types of people, you are free. Your mental state, once full of questions, is now free. Live the life you were given and forget about society's drama. Why stress over one human when you have a world to see? Go explore, your heart can take a beat. All the Love -Kate

Things Happen

Hi, everyone! This week has been kind of a downfall for me. Cousin Emily is back in Texas and I've never missed her more. I haven't had the best luck with tests and school this week. And a new friend I had made quickly removed themselves from my life today. And so it goes. I think about how quickly everything can change. Like in school, I can have an A+ and one test changes it to a B. Or I have a shot at something and before I can grasp it, the window of opportunity slams shut. That's been my week/weekend. Among all the downfall, I began to think of how things will change for the better. This week is a three and half day week because spring break is coming up! I'm so thrilled to relax and refresh during spring break with friends. I also get to change up my hair a little this week, embarking on a "New Kate". My ACT is coming up soon. I feel more prepared than the last time I took my ACT, and when I think of the ACT, I think about college. College is my opportunity to grow and live a little. Also, prom is coming up in May! I can't wait to dance the night away with my girlfriends. Even though this week took a turn for the worst, I know that everything is just now starting to look up. All the Love -Kate

Weekend, Please Don't Leave

This weekend was spectacular. My cousin, Emily, stayed with me for the whole weekend and it was like she became the sister I never had. We went out on the town on Friday. On Saturday, we went on a shopping spree and even got sick friendship bracelet because we are just cool like that. I also got to introduce her to my friends this weekend which was a lot of fun. My friend, Clare, recently got surgery and I wanted to wish her well. Also, for anyone out there who rather enjoys reading (I mean you should, what do you think you're doing right now) you should read Clare's story she's writing on wattpad! I'll have the information in the left side bar. On Saturday night, we hopped into our sweatpants, ate loads of candy to the point where our stomachs couldn't take it anymore, and watched three movies and four episodes of Broad City. I had an incredible weekend with an incredible girl. Emily is someone I can tell anything to. Whether it be about boys, what's socially acceptable, views on life, or the future in general, we can chit-chat for hours about anything.  Today, she is traveling back home to Texas. To say that I'll miss her would be an understatement. But I know that this is the furthest thing from goodbye. I'm excited to embrace new adventures & unforgettable memories with her whenever we see one another again. Until then, I'll smile at the memories we've already created as the dynamic duo of cousins. (Love you Em). All the Love -Kate

Reunited At Last

So this is a late post, but I had one of the best weekends ever. My cousins, Hannah and Emily, came home from Texas. I had been waiting so long to see them, it was so fulfilling to see them again. Emily spent the night at my cousin's house. Her, Alex, Ella, and my brother Jack, all hung out and reunited. Seeing my best friends all together again was one of the most satisfying things that could have happened. Not all did I see them all again, but the weather is finally looking up. It's finally feeling like spring. Sharing multiple laughs on a sunny, cool day is one of the best feelings. We created numerous new jokes and laughs this weekend. Those laughs can never fade from my memory. I left my cousin's house today. I thought I wouldn't see Emily again and I was really heartbroken. However, I might see her later this week which gives me hope. Hope is what got me to see Hannah and Emily this weekend. Hope keeps me going and hope led me to a paradise of laughter this weekend. All the Love -Kate